Just Write.

Just start.

Just write.

Just move.

If you’re anything like me, new, big things appear daunting. Appear unachievable. Starting something is one thing, but continuing is another. Diligence is key + often I feel I lack the drive. I love the excitement of something new. I even love starting it! But once I’m in it doubt + exhaustion quickly settle in.

For example… this website. I felt I was to start it. I couldn’t understand why, yet it felt like there was a tractor beam fixed upon me + that I must do it. So I did it. I felt the freshness of it + it was exciting. But once it all got set-up I suddenly was hit with thoughts of doubt. It felt heavy with phrases of “this is too big for you” + “you’re trying too hard to make something” along with “this is going to be too much work” + “I don’t have time for this in my life right now”.

So, here I am almost a month from my last post feeling that need to write but struggling to make words happen. Feeling scared of what I created + actively avoiding it. As I was talking to the Lord about it I felt as if He made it very simple, as it always is with Him, + I felt Him say… “Just Write”. Sometimes it really annoys me that it is that simple, but then when I step into it, it is actually so relieving to know it is that simple. Rest is simple. Leaning is simple. I don’t have to over complicate things. But I’m very good at it + so used to it. I feel like the Lord is helping me create new neuro-pathways in my brain of rest, of leaning. Where it’s not about what I can force to happen, but what I can learn + allow my Father to lead me. He is so good.

So as I end this, not too sure if this makes sense, but I don’t really care I suppose. Thought processing is a messy deal + letting them flow clears out the webs. So in conclusion, I must write just to get the thoughts out + to see what they form. I can’t be afraid of them anymore.

So this is me inadvertently encouraging you while I remind me to just write. Get the words out + just start.