It’s Not Right.
[This post was originally written Sept. 19th, 2023. Recently, a life-changing diagnosis came to us about our daughter + this feeling of “It’s Not Right” has come over me again. While this situation does not have the stamp of death on it, it’s still heavy. So while I process this new information, this post is ringing true in my heart.]
Death. It comes to us all. There can be a sort of beauty in it. But there is also something about it that feels so wrong. So out of place. And I think it’s because we know deep inside it was never meant to be. When God created the world death wasn’t the thing on His mind. He was creating with intention for life. For relationship.
Within the past 5 years we’ve seen much death + recently we experienced our first pet death. And something about death is so unsettling. So painful. For our children this was the first really close creature to them that has died. The little memorial for our dear puppy was filled with much weeping + wailing. It was one of the more mournful things (for a pet) I’ve ever witnessed. but I noticed something inside me.
Over the past two years something inside me has shifted. A moving aside of complacency + a justice of sorts has taken over my soul. And as I stood + watching my children bitterly weep over this puppy that was taken 5yrs (or more) too early, something inside me screamed “this isn’t right!” “This isn’t ok!” It was like my spirit got a hold of my soul + was shaking itself saying “don’t you see?! This isn’t how it’s supposed to be!” Oh how in the past I’d grieve + be sad for how God was ready to take another life back to Him. Sure. It’s His desire that we be with Him where He is. But death was not His choice. Death came because of a choice of two people 6,000 some years ago. God has always had life on His mind!
So yes. Let us mourn. Let us weep. But let us also rejoice at the amazing thing Jesus did on the cross because He kicked death in the face! And I think once we realize that death is dead + we BELIEVE that Jesus did that, we are going to start seeing the dead come to life + bodies healed. Because that is our inheritance. Yes. We live in a fallen world. But the reality of what Jesus did is much bigger + better than we’ve ever realized! So no. It’s not right. But Jesus made it right.